Makeups

(This post is perfect for makeup beginners, like me, not experts. haha)

Hehe let's talk about girly stuff today (gedik sat :P). Today, I want to talk about makeup.

Hmm..when was the first time you guys wear makeup on a daily basis? (women only, of course. I don't want to know guys who wear makeup on a daily basis. If you do, keep it to yourself, please. haha)

Honestly I only started to wear makeup on a daily basis during my final year at college. (Before that I only wore powder and lipbalm, which is not a makeup btw). At that time, I forced myself to wear simple makeup everyday (foundation/powder, eyeliner and occasionally, lip gloss and mascara) because I reliazed that I would enter the career world once I graduated, and to me, every career woman need to have some makeup on to make them look more professional. When I say makeup, I don't mean covering your face with everything, just a simple powder, mascara/eyeliner, and lip gloss will do. And so, diligently, I wore makeup everyday, even on busy days, because I believed I would be busy once I entered the career world anyway, so I might as well practice to get used to it.

Since then, I have tried to learn the basics of makeup--how to choose the perfect foundation, how to apply the eyeliner, what are the makeup essentials, etc. And of course, during the learning process, I have embarassed myself by applying my makeup the wrong way, which made me look funny. But that's okay. I have learned from my mistakes, and I think now, I am able to apply makeup the correct way (I think..free to disagree haha).

Anyway, one of the important things about makeup, other than the techniques, is the type (or brand) of the makeup used. I have tried quite a number of makeup before, and now I have found some of my favorites. Let me tell you what they are.

(1) Foundation

I have a combination skin and it is quite sensitive/pimple-prone as well. Hence, finding the right foundation that does not irritate my skin (apart from the right facial cleanser and moisturizer) is important to me. Personally, I think finding the right foundation is the hardest process of all (I think most people would agree with this!). Firstly, most foundations tend to have a heavy feeling when you put it on your face--which I hate--especially liquid and creme foundation. The feeling is not that apparent when using a compact foundation, though. For me, the best foundation that does not give this feeling is mineral foundation, which I am currently using. Secondly, finding the right shade is owh-so-difficult. Being a southeast asian, I have a yellow-based tanned skin, but most foundations tend to be white or pink based. Everytime I bought over-the-counter foundation, I have never felt totally satisfied with my buy. All the foundations that I have used before tend to make me look like I was wearing a mask.

However, a few months ago, I found this mineral foundation from lovingminerals.com that matched my skin tone perfectly. The color was designed specifically for southeast asians' skin. When I put it on, I swear I looked like I was not wearing any makeup on, but the foundation gave me the coverage I needed. Plus, with it's dual function as a concealer as well, I could just take a concealer brush, dab it a little with the foundation, and cover all the scars that I have. I love love love the color. However, the downside of this foundation-concealer is that I need to use quite a lot of it, and it doesn't really stay that long compared to the other mineral foundation that I have used (Bare Escentuals). To me, Bare Escentuals foundations are at the same level as liquid foundations in terms of its 'staying' power, however, unfortunately, it doesn't have the perfect shade for me (apart from the fact that it is not sold in Malaysia).

(2) Finishing powder

I have to say my favorite is Mineral veil from Bare Escentuals. Mineral veil is just perfect. It makes my makeup stays and it makes my skin less shiny (I have oily skin, especially at the T-zone). However, since it is not sold in Malaysia, I have to find other alternatives. I used to use Maybelline's Loose Powder, which worked just fine, but I cannot find it anymore. Now I am using Silky Girl's Loose Powder, but I don't fancy it as much since I don't really like the smell and shade. I am still looking for the right replacement for the owh-so-loveable Mineral Veil.

(3) Eyeliner

Typically, the first eyeliner for most people is the pencil eyeliner. I have used it too, but I did not really fancy it since it's not as dark, and sometimes it was too stiff and hard that it hurt when I put it on. The softer ones however, tend to smudge easily. I tried liquid eyeliner after that, but it was too hard to control. Thanks to Mas, I tried Clinique's gel/cream liner and I loved it.

Gel liner is like the merged product of a pencil liner and a liquid liner. It has the intensity of a liquid liner, and is easy to control like a pencil liner. It is also perfect if you want to produce a smoky look as you can easily smudge it with a brush after application. I personally love Clinique's and MAC's gel liner since both stay on longer and don't smudge (I couldn't find Clinique's in Malaysia, though). Nowadays there are a lot of other brands producing gel liner, such as Maybellilne and Revlon, but I haven't had the opportunity to try them. I will, maybe, after I have finished using my MAC's (which I have been using for a year now, and I still have, like, 40% left. A good RM70 investment, I'd say).

(4) Mascara

I have short, straight, thin eyelashes *sob*. Finding a good mascara which can lengthen, thicken, and curl my owh-so-sad eyelashes, while at the same time does not smudge, is a challenge for me. After a lot of buying and trying, I fell in love with these two babies--Fasio's Power Stay Mascara 3D + Air Tech (Curl Volume), and L'oreal's double extension (tube technology) mascaras. Fasio's mascara stays on like a paint! No kidding! Rubbing, washing with water won't take it off, so it is perfect to be worn on days you think you would cry (haha). It, however, doesn't really thicken my lashes, but it lengthen them just fine. Perfect for a natural look, I'd say.

L'oreal's however, lengthen, thicken, and curl my eyelashes perfectly! It makes me look like I am wearing fake lashes! When I tried it on, I knew I had to have it! It stays on perfectly too, although it's not waterproof. I just love it. The effect is heavier than Fasio's though, so it is perfect for functions, I'd say. But you can still wear it everyday, of course, if you don't mind looking a little bit too made on a daily basis.

p/s: tips for muslims, don't let your waterproof mascara touching your skin when putting it on, so that you won't have to take if off while taking ablution :)

(5) Eye shadows

I haven't tried a lot of eye shadows yet, but I am currently using those from lovingminerals.com and absolutely like it! They are in powder form though, so you might need a little bit of practice before mastering it. Previously, I have tried creme eyeshadows, but I don't like them as much because they tend to crease. I'm yet to try pallete eyeshadow though.

(6) Blushers

I only started to use blusher about 2 weeks ago, so I cannot really say anything about this. But currently, I am using Maybelline's mineral blush in original rose. So far, I love the color, but it doesn't stay that long, I think. I still need to look at other alternatives.

Hmm..that's that I think. Care to share what your favorites are? :)

I am fasting today

I am fasting today. Need to start replacing those days I skipped..

Actually I did not make any niat to fast until this morning, when I wake up for sahur. Which means I wouldn't have fasted if I did not wake up on time. And I thought I wouldn't wake up on time since I went to bed quite late (12:50am).

Miraculously I felt my heart jerking at 4:58am this morning, and so I was awake. My alarm had not ringing yet since I set it to go off at 5:15am. Normally I would pull my blanket and continue sleeping but then I remembered these words uttered by one of the speakers during my marriage course:

"Kalau kamu terjaga malam2 tu, bermakna Allah nak kamu bercakap dengan dia.."

Then I remembered that I wanted to fast today. Allah tolong kejutkan rupanya. Alhamdulillah.

And so I pushed my blanket away and headed straight to the bathroom to take my shower.

Second chance

I sent an email to the deputy vice chancellor (academic) yesterday asking for the result of my application. However, she asked me to ask the registrar as she couldn't possibly remember all 30 cases that were brought up in the meeting last Tuesday.

I called the registrar today. And as expected, the person who is responsible for this thing is on leave (MC). She was on leave yesterday too. And I expect her to be on leave till the end of this year. Anyway, I called her assistant, and my calls were not picked up.

Then I got a call from Jinan. Apparently her luck was better and the assistant actually picked up her call. Jinan asked about my application. The assistant told her that my application needs further discussion by the Majlis Pengurusan Universiti (or something like that). The meeting is normally held every week, but since there will be a lot of people on leave next week, they will hold the meeting the week after. So, I still have to wait for another two weeks to get the result.

I am disappointed yet relieved at the same time. Disappointed because I still need to wait, but relieved because at least I know it was not rejected. And also relieved because I feel like I am given a second chance to pray my heart out.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Let me get this. I want this. I need this.

Amiiin~

p/s: Please pray for me people. I really need everyone's prayer. huhuhu

Of finding Mr.Right and saving money..

With all these wedding stuffs, it makes me realize two things.

(1) In search for the right one, the perfect man might not be our Mr.Right. What important is, he is the perfect one for us. He may have some flaws, or may even have a lot of flaws, but somehow we know that he is the right one of us. After all, no one is perfect right? Including ourselves. So, why do our Mr.Right has to be perfect? When we know he is our Mr.Right, we see perfection in the imperfection. But of course, one thing that I think everyone needs to have is the desire to be better--that includes ourselves, and our Mr.Right. People will change over time, so why not changing for the better with our Mr.Right?

(2) We know that wedding costs a LOT, but we tend to save for our wedding when we actually have found our Mr.Right, since saving before finding our Mr.Right may make us look dreamy/pathetic/living in a fantasy. But trust me, we will spend more when we have found our Mr.Right, so trying to save at that time is kinda pointless. So, to singles out there, start saving before it's too late! Just ignore what other people might say! (or just answer you are saving for a holiday oversea instead)

p/s: scholarship result today. *bit nails*

Lightheadedness

Have you ever felt lightheaded? How often?

I used to be active and strong ever since I was a little girl. However, I started to not able to stand up for too long when I hit 15. Everytime I needed to stand up for speeches etc., my stomach would feel funny and I would start sweating. Then I would start to feel lightheaded. Usually I would end up having to go out of the line and find a place to sit.

That feeling didn't occur often though. It would normally occur whenever I had to stand (not walking/jogging/running) for more than 15 minutes. And I never hit the point where I was about to faint.

However, it has gotten worst starting 2 years ago. I started to feel lightheaded whenever I jog on the treadmill for too long (more than 30 minutes), but it did not happen whenever I jog on the ground. But still, it was bearable, until recently..

For the past year, I have been feeling lightheaded after I jog, either on the ground or treadmill. And about a couple of weeks ago, during my BTN camp, I almost faint when I was in the line during our exercise session (it was neither too hot, nor long..I was standing for less than 30 minutes, I think). My stomach started to feel funny, then I started sweating, and my head felt light. Within seconds, I saw these white 'stars' started to covering my view, then I knew I had to rest.

As if it was not bad enough, since last week, I started to feel lightheaded most of the time, especially after meal, and it would last for hours. Sometimes it would happen before meals too, whenever I felt hungry. It's really irritating because I would not be able to focus on anything when it happened. It got better now though, after I consumed a lot of cockles last Saturday evening.

I looked online for possible explaination. Most of the people who experienced the same problem had hypoglycaemia (aka low blood sugar), or reactive hypoglycaemia (aka low blood sugar after eating). Is there a possibility that I might have it? Or is it just I don't have enough blood? (which I kinda doubt because my palms are red). My late grandmom had to consume a lot of iron at one point because she did not have enough blood. Could it be genetic?

Anyone has an explaination? Should I go to see a doctor?

Perkara-perkara yg saya pelajari ketika BTN

Dah taktau nak buat ape ni. Tulis blog lah.

Hmm hari ni mari menulis pasal topik2 dalam BTN ari tu.

Basically BTN ari tu citer pasal sejarah Malaysia, starting from kurun ke-7 lagi. Sejarah dari kurun ke-7 ini adalah penting untuk menceritakan tentang perlembagaan, specifically what people call as kontrak sosial (walaupon dalam perlembagaan tiada tertulis perkataan kontrak sosial sebenarnye).

Anyway, pada kurun ke-7, Nusantara (read: tanah2/kepulauan di Asia Tenggara) merupakan satu tamadun, yang dikenali sebagai tamadun Melayu, sama seperti tamadun China, tamadun India dan sebagainya. Apabila penduduk dalam sebuah tamadun itu berhijrah ke kawasan lain dalam tamadun yg sama, dia tidak dikira sebagai pendatang. Kefahaman terhadap konsep ini adalah penting kerana pada masa sekarang ramai org yg mempertikaikan bahawa org Melayu di Malaysia adalah pendatang juga kerana kebanyakannya nenek moyang berasal dari Indonesia. Tetapi sebenarnya tidak, kerana asalnya orang Melayu adalah dari Kepulauan Melayu. Anyway, bezanya tamadun Melayu dengan tamadun China dan India adalah, tamadun Melayu terpecah kepada beberapa negara akibat kedatangan kuasa2 penjajah yang berlainan.

Semasa orang2 Melayu berjuang untuk memperoleh kemerdekaan dari British, orang2 Cina dan India pada ketika itu berdepan dengan dilemma kerana mereka bukan warganegara di Tanah Melayu. Ini bermakna, selepas kemerdekaan, mereka either akan dihantar pulang ke China atau India, atau ke Britain (sebahagian org China dan India yg dibawa masuk ke Malaya pada waktu itu mendapat kerakyatan Britain). Tetapi, dengan keadaan hidup yang rata2nya lebih stabil di Tanah Melayu, org Cina dan India pada waktu itu tidak mahu pulang ke tanah air mereka kerana keadaan ekonomi yg lebih lemah di sana. Pulang ke Britain pula bermakna mereka akan terpaksa bersaing dengan penduduk asal di sana yang sudah jauh lebih maju (perlu diingat pada waktu itu org Cina menguasai perniagaan, dan org India menguasai estet2 di Tanah Melayu). Jalan lain yang tinggal untuk org Cina dan India pada ketika itu adalah dengan menjadi warganegara di Tanah Melayu.

Namun begitu, untuk memberikan taraf kewarganegaraan, suatu perjanjian perlu dibuat untuk mengekalkan kestabilan dan keharmonian negara. (Perlu diingat, pemberian kewarganegaraan pada waktu ini melibatkan jumlah yang besar; bayangkan jika kita memberi kewarganegaraan secara serentak kepada semua pendatang asing di negara ini sekarang). Dengan pemberian kewarganegaraan, org Cina dan India perlu bersetuju dengan Raja-raja Melayu sebagai ketua negara, agama Islam sebagai agama rasmi, Bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa rasmi, dan juga hak2 keistimewaan orang Melayu. Jika kita lihat kepada tiga perkara yg awal (Raja2 Melayu, agama Islam, dan Bahasa Melayu), perkara2 itu bukanlah sesuatu yg baru yg dibuat sebagai pertukaran kepada kewarganegaraan yang diberi; perkara2 itu adalah perkara2 tunjang yg memang telah diamalkan di Tanah Melayu sejak berkurun2 lamanya. Ianya seperti ikrar kesetiaan kepada negara yg ingin dimasuki. Perkara yang baru hanyalah hak2 keistimewaan orang Melayu (dan kemudiannya termasuk Bumiputera), dan inilah perkara yang menjadi pertukaran dengan taraf kewarganegaraan yang diberi. Namun, kita perlu sedar bahawa dengan pertukaran ini, orang2 bukan Melayu juga mendapat hak mereka sebagai warganegara, dan di dalam perlembagaan ada menyatakan bahawa Raja2 Melayu perlu menjaga kedua2nya--hak2 orang2 Melayu dan bukan Melayu. After all, kita semua adalah rakyat Malaysia.

Bercakap berkenaan rakyat Malaysia, sebenarnya rakyat Malaysia terbahagi kepada tiga kategori: (1) Melayu, (2) Bumiputra, dan (3) warganegara. Melayu adalah seseorang yg beragama Islam, bertutur Bahasa Melayu dan mengamalkan adat istiadat Melayu. Mengamalkan adat istiadat Melayu dalam konteks ini bermaksud paling kurang salah seorang ibu atau bapanya merupakan seorang Melayu. Kiranya ia menggambarkan pertalian darah. Bumiputra pula merujuk kepada orang2 asli di semenanjung, dan ras2 asli di Sabah dan Sarawak. Suku kaum Melayu di Sabah dan Sarawak juga termasuk dalam kategori Bumiputra, dan bukan kategori Melayu. Ini adalah kerana Sabah dan Sarawak bergabung dengan Persekutuan Tanah Melayu untuk menjadi Malaysia selepas perlembagaan telah digubal. Namun begitu, mengikut perlembagaan, Bumiputra juga mempunyai hak2 yang sama seperti Melayu. Warganegara pula merujuk kepada taraf kewarganegaraan yang diberi, iaitu org bukan Melayu atau Bumiputra.

Di samping itu, kami juga didedahkan dengan kesan2 yg akan terjadi sekiranaya perlembagaan dipinda. Contohnya, pelupusan perkara 153 dalam perlembagaan (hak2 keistimewaan orang Melayu) akan menyebabkan hilangnya taraf kewarganegaraan bagi org bukan Melayu (perkara 153 ada juga menyebut tentang hak2 orang bukan Melayu). Begitu juga dengan kes Azlina Jailani (Lina Joy) yang meminta gugurnya perkataan Islam dari kad pengenalannya. Mengikut perlembagaan, org Melayu mestilah beragama Islam (tidak seperti org bukan Melayu, org Melayu di Malaysia tiada hak untuk menukar agama, walaupun pada realitinya ada yang murtad..itu adalah urusannya dengan Allah), dan ini menerangkan mengapa Azlina Jailani kalah dalam perbicaraannya. Sekiranya dia menang, kemenangannya boleh menyebabkan perkataan Melayu di dalam perlembagaan (ada 38 kesemuanya) menjadi void, termasuk Raja-raja Melayu, dan ini akan menyebabkan negara kita menjadi sebuah negara republik (yang pada pendapat saya, lebih tidak stabil, kerana lihat sahaja sekeliling kita. Politik sekarang yang agak terkawal dengan adanya raja-raja ini pon sudah ntah apa2, bayangkan sekiranya negara kita menjadi negara republik, semua nak berebut kuasa). Namun begitu, apa-apa pindaan yang ingin dibuat ke atas perlembagaan yang berkisar dengan orang Melayu akan memerlukan kelulusan Majlis Raja-raja. Ini merupakan satu benda tentang perlembagaan yang saya rasa membuatkan ia begitu unik dan kukuh.

Selain dari itu, konsep asas pentadbiran negara dan konsep 1Malaysia juga diberikan penerangan. Yang saya maksudkan dengan konsep asas pentadbiran negara ialah negara kita mengamalkan demokrasi berparlimen dan raja berpelembagaan. Sekiranya sesebuah negara mengamalkan konsep demokrasi sepenuhnya, ianya bermaksud kuasa mutlak di tangan rakyat, manakala konsep beraja sepenuhnya bermaksud kuasa mutlak di tangan raja. Tetapi negara kita berada di tengah2--both raja dan rakyat have a say in pentadbiran negara. Demokrasi berparlimen bermaksud, since penduduk negara kita mencecah lebih 27 juta ramainya, adalah mustahil untuk semua berkumpul dan memberi pendapat tentang pentadbiran. Lalu negara telah dibahagikan kepada 222 bahagian, dan setiap bahagian akan menghantar seorang wakil untuk mewakili mereka. Inilah yang dikatakan demokrasi berparlimen; rakyat menghantar wakil untuk menyalurkan pendapat mereka ke parlimen. Raja berpelembagaan pula bermaksud raja masih memerintah, namun kuasa mereka terikat dengan apa yang dinyatakan dalam berlembagaan.

Konsep 1Malaysia pula bukannya bermaksud semua rakyat mempunyai hak yang sama rata. Kita bukan negara komunis. Hak kita memang berlainan berdasarkan keperluan. Keyword untuk konsep 1Malaysia adalah 'penerimaan'. Ianya bermakna, kita sebagai rakyat Malaysia menerima bahawa kita semua berbeza, namun kita semua adalah rakyat Malaysia.

Basically, itulah perkara2 penting/asas yg dibincangkan di BTN. Bagi saya, ianya tidak perkauman kerana setiap kenyataan dilampirkan dengan fakta (Fasilitator saya akan menyuruh kami merujuk buku perlembagaan on the spot, lengkap dengan nombor perkara, bagi setiap jawapan untuk persoalan yg kami ajukan. Kagum). Mungkin jika kita membuka minda kita untuk mendengar setiap penerangan tentang negara kita, kita akan sedar bahawa negara kita Malaysia merupakan sebuah negara yang unik, yang terbina atas persefahaman antara kaum.

Saya cinta Malaysia.

p/s: sekiranya ada persoalan tentang apa yg saya tulis, sy akan cuba menerangkannya dengan lebih terperinci berdasarkan apa yang saya pelajari, namun saya bukanlah pakar perundangan. Jika soalan terlalu mendalam, mungkin kita perlu rujuk kepada yang pakar.

p/s: owh btw, tambahan. 'Ketuanan Melayu' merujuk kepada Raja-raja Melayu, dan bukannya merujuk kepada org Melayu sebagai tuan tanah ini atau sebegainya. Orang Melayu dan bukan Melayu semuanya sama sahaja..semua pun rakyat Malaysia.

The Two Aries

Aries is the first sign of zodiac.

According to the horoscope, people born under this sign is a natural leader. But I think that is not applicable to me. To my fiance...maybe. He was a prefect and the head boy and stuffs.

Anyway, that's not the point. I am not going to talk about zodiac and horoscope and anything along that line here..what I am trying to say is, I have a new blog. The blog was created a few minutes ago, so don't expect a well organized, beautiful, readable blog. The reason for the new blog is because I don't want to put too much personal stuffs in this blog, since this blog was initially created for me to post ideas, and anything that I think worth sharing (although I know I keep on breaking the rule lately. hehe).

*okay, writers' block due to sleepiness*

Anyway, do visit the blog if you want to know updates on my wedding preparation and anything down that line.

Good night!

Semester result

I got 4.0 for my last semester's result.

My first time getting a 4.0 since high school.

(Heck, did I even once got a 4.0 in high school anyway?)

But why am I not happy and jumping?

Instead, I feel guilty.

Hate it. Urgh.

I am officially engaged!

Today is December 12, 2009

It's my brother's 26th birthday

And my engagement day

I am officially engaged. Yeay!

Photos later, yeah? I am waiting for my friend (Ibik) to upload the pics.

Hehehehe

Anyway, let's look at some sneak peaks..

muka gembira dah tunang X)

top: cincin tunang, bottom: cincin risik

now the proposal ring has two new friends! (haha gedik gile)

The ultimate crap of all

It's 2:15am and I am getting engaged in approximately 9 hours

I am very sleepy, yet my dad doesn't let me sleep because everyone else is sleeping and he's scared that no one will wake up on time

I am sleepy, and will be the only person with a pair of sleepy eyes on her engagement day

Lalalala~

Anyway, putting sleepiness aside, I have found my ring back! Yeay!

My dad found it yesterday on the ground when he was sweeping all the leaves and stuffs. So apparently I did not flush it down the toilet. hehehe

Hmm.. what else should I crap?

Hmm..I'm going to do my own makeup tomorrow. Hopefully it will turn out well. I am not good with colorful makeup as I always use natural color (brown) for my makeup, but o well. Same techniques, different colors, that's all.

Hmm.. Ibik will be my photographer for tomorrow. And kakyah will come as guest. Other than that, all my friends are not free to come. That's fine. It's supposed to be a small ceremony anyway.

Hmm..what else?

I am sleepy~ (=.=)~~~

Of scholarship and a woman

I am getting engaged this Saturday. (yeay!)

However I can't really feel the vibes due to several problems relating to:
(1) scholarship
(2) a woman

Let's go to the first problem: scholarship.

The registrar told me a couple of weeks ago that they would hold a study leave meeting on the 9th of November. However, when I asked for the result today (10th November) they told me that the meeting was postponed to the 22nd November 2009. Then there will be another meeting within a week after that. The problem is, I have to send the acceptance declaration form together with a financial affidavit to ANU latest by the 23rd November 2009. I can't get the financial affidavit on time for sure. And so I sent an email asking to extend the dateline to ANU. Aaa~ hopefully they will consider..

Okay, second problem: a woman.

I am not against befriending the ex after a breakup. I mean, it's fine, as long as both parties know that they are done, and not crossing the limit. (Hey, I am a rational person, okay?) However, contacting your ex again to tell the problem that you have with your current partner is a big no-no.

I am a woman. As a woman, I know that when we tell our relationship problem to a friend, we are actually hoping the friend to understand our problem and console us. I also know that when a woman tells a male friend (especially her ex) about her relationship problem, she actually hoping the male friend to understand and become the 'replacement' for her partner. That's why it is very dangerous for a man to be the crying shoulder for a woman who has a relationship problem with her man. The man will most probably be the rebound.

I am a woman. As a woman, I know that they are at least two types of women on this Earth. One is the loyal women, and the other one is the attention-seeker women. The loyal women will stay by their men's side no matter what, and the attention-seeker women cannot stand being alone and always try to get men's attention, although they already have their own men. Unfortunately, the loyal women don't get that much attention from men due to their more reserved personality, while the attention-seeker women usually get the men's attention because of their usually pleasant (to most men, at least, or as other women call it, gedik) personality. Attention-seeker women usually can get away with almost anything, because they can just wink, and that is enough to melt the other party's heart. To relate to the previous paragraph, attention-seeker women usually tell their relationship problem to male friends, instead of their female friends, because of course, they want attention.

Another problem with the attention-seeker women is that they usually identify one man to be their sort of 'safety net'. The man is usually the loyal-type, who sticks to only one woman at a time, and may even stick to that one particular woman whom he really loves. The attention-seeker woman will usually make herself irresistible to the loyal man and become his one particular woman, so that whenever the attention-seeker woman does something wrong, the loyal man will not mind and forgive the attention-seeker woman anyway, even if the attention-seeker woman actually cheats on the loyal man.

However, after a while usually the loyal man will finally gives up on the attention-seeker woman, and finds a loyal woman as his soulmate. The attention-seeker woman will seek for another man's attention, and the loyal man and the loyal woman will live happily together. A happy ending, isn't it? No. The problem arise when the attention seeker woman face a problem with her current man, and she goes back to the loyal man to tell her problem, in hope that the loyal man will accept her back, or at least be her crying shoulder. After all, the attention-seeker woman sees the loyal man as her safety net, doesn't she?

However, the loyal man has already given up on the attention-seeker woman, and he has his loyal woman by his side. Being a loyal man, he will turn down the attention-seeker woman's hope and stick to his loyal woman instead. However, being the attention-seeker woman, she will most probably try her luck by keeping on contacting the loyal man, knowing that the loyal man may one day accept her back since he had once stuck to her, and with the so-called pleasant personality that she has, she knows that the loyal man can't possibly hate her.

And so the insecure feeling kicks the loyal woman, as she watches the attention-seeker woman trying to seek for the loyal man's attention. As much as the loyal woman trusts the loyal man to remain loyal, she still can't ignore the capability of the attention-seeker woman.

p/s: I think I could turn into a psycho-gf. Hahaha.

Post BTN

I came back from BTN camp yesterday and I slept till noon today. Hohoho.

It was a good and enjoyable camp overall. There was no racism or political agenda being brought up. Of course both topics were brought up, but all were in the form of facts, so that doesn't count. Maybe those who refuse to accept the facts and refuse to think would say BTN is this and that. But of course, some facilitators/lecturers might have said things that sounded racist/political. However I can assure you the module was not. For me, every Malaysian should attend BTN, particularly the one that I just went (considering there are different modules for different target groups).

Anyway, I'll share with all of you what I learned from the camp. But not now..I'm just too sleepy and tired.

Good night everyone.

p/s: balik2 btn tros busy dengan preparation