Updates

I've been wanting to write in this blog..but somehow I did not find a time to write. O well~

Anyway, here are some update on what has been going on for the past couple of weeks..

Bye-bye Tokmak!

Last week's Tuesday (August 4, 2009) was the day for my family to grieve. My grandmom passed away at 6:40pm due to pneumonia with cold aglution (?) disease. It was a very sad event for all of us. Tokmak had always been a very good mother and grandmother. She was soft spoken, and rarely..or more to never, nags. She did all the housework patiently. I had never heard her complaining about having to do all the housework alone. She was a good person.

The next day, everyone came for her funeral. All of us had the chance to kiss her goodbye for the last time. I saw her face for the first time after she breathed her last breath. I couldn't help from feeling sad, and tears started to gather in my eyes. I kissed her forehead. She was cold, and hard, like a ceramic. After kissing her, I walked to the kitchen, trying to find a place where I can be alone and cry. I never thought that I would cry that hard that day. The thought of not having her around always bring me to tears, even until now. I miss her.

p/s: That night when she passed away, I went to bed thinking of her. Then I felt like I was hugged from behind while I was sleeping. I am sure that it wasn't anyone else. I am pretty sure it was her.

Group presentation

Last Monday, we had to do group presentation for our class. I was the group leader (self-claimed since there was no one else volunteered to take charge), and at the last minute, I learned that one of the students who was supposed to present fell sick and was asked to stay at home. As a good leader (?!) I volunteered myself to replace her.

So there I was, presenting in front of the class. Holding the microphone..listening my own voice coming out from the speaker. It was a good presentation, I think, and everything went well. After the class, a few people came up to me complimented me on my presentation. I was like, "Owh, thanks. Hehe"

Have I ever mentioned that I enjoy talking in front of people? I don't know why, but somehow it gives me satisfaction. And I also enjoy organizing events or something. It is satisfying to see something that I have been working on going as planned. Or even if it is not going too well, at least I know that I have tried my best. Maybe it's the adrenaline..

p/s: Maybe I should consider changing my job from being a tutor to being a motivator. hehehe..

Grad school

With the owh-so-dissapointing classes, I was seriously thinking about finding a grad school overseas. However, I was called in by the dean today, and he told (or more to forced) me to convert my Master program to a PhD program by at least next semester, and to finish my PhD within 3 years. And there it goes, my hope of finding a better place to do my grad school. I guess I have no choice but to finish my PhD as soon as possible here. I hope I will survive this grad school.

O well, I think I should just focus on finishing it as soon as possible. At least, after getting my PhD, I don't have to think about this thing anymore, and I can be pretty well happy with my pay at that time..haha

p/s: have.to.accept.the.fact.have.to.accept.the.fact.have.to.accept.the.fact.

Hmm..that's it I think. Hmm..that's quite boring, although I swear I have more things to write about, but being me, I forgot most of them. Haha. Till my brain finds back all those lost thoughts. Have a nice day, people! :)